You are hereArticles / "I can do, you can do" How Martial Arts Has Helped Me By Lindsay Seamans
"I can do, you can do" How Martial Arts Has Helped Me By Lindsay Seamans
For those of you who know me, I'm sure I would be described as being far from an extroverted, spontaneous, Type A personality. I would say that I am very much the opposite of everything in that first sentence. I am shy, introverted, and always think things through. That's how I am, and I've come to accept it.
I didn't join Muay Thai to only get into shape. I joined because my self-confidence and self-esteem were so low, I didn't think I could do it. I can remember the first time I even attempted to do Thai class. I almost had a panic attack! I could only sit against a wall and watch, all while my husband Doug and Khru Dick were trying to get me to join in, not even having the guts to tell them how nervous I was and that I thought my heart was trying to come out of my chest. Needless to say, that first experience didn't do a whole lot for my confidence! While sitting against that very wall, I made up mind: I WANTED to train and learn Muay Thai, and try to kick this awful habit of giving up before I even give it a go, no matter how uncomfortable it made me. Failure wasn't an option! I was scared to death the first time I actually took a Thai class. I was so intimidated by how good everyone else was! But everyone in class, including whoever was teaching that night and who I was paired up with, reminded me that everyone has to start somewhere. I felt so good after that first class, I can't describe it! So I took the plunge and haven't looked back!
During this "plunge" process, Khru Dick left the gym I was training at, and opened his own place. I didn't immediately follow - I really don't like change; change goes along with the confidence issues and a new place and new people are intimidating! I was torn on where to go, and since my husband was running a class out of this other gym, I stayed there. I kept training though, and pushing forward, and eventually passed my Level I test under the Thai Boxing Association. Even more of the shell was beginning to break away. Not quite a year ago, I started going down to SouthEnd to once again train under Khru Dick. It wasn't long until I realized that this is where I belong. Dick Harrell Martial Arts is a place where I can just be. I never feel as if I'm being measured against someone else, only against myself and how hard and how far I can push myself and be pushed. Under the instruction of Khru's Dick, Tim , Janet and Noah, I've finally begun to realize my true potential from passing my Level II test under the Thai Boxing Association and beginning to train for something else: getting into the ring!
That being said, my shell is still there, it's about halfway gone now. However difficult this journey has been, I now truly know what I can and cannot do. I still cannot get up in front of a huge group of people and NOT get nervous, even if I know the people who are watching. I can however, and did, get up in front of a huge group of people and make my debut as an amateur Thai fighter on January 22, 2011. Even though I lost by a very close split decision, I can't tell you enough how proud of myself I am for coming such a long way! Talk about a leap in confidence! I feel like a new person who can do anything and everything! Without the support of everyone at DHMA, my husband, family and a HUGE support network, I don't think it would ever have been possible. I'm pretty sure I made everyone else proud too!
What's next? I can't wait to get back in the ring and fight again! I also can't wait to eventually test for my Apprentice Instructor Level in the Thai Boxing Association, so that one day I can help someone who struggles with the same issues I do. Because in the words of Grandmaster Chai Sirisute, "They can do, you can do."